Nurturance

“You will find within yourself the ability to replenish the spirit and encourage the beauty, development, and growth about to take place. Only with nurturance can this growth occur.” ~ from the Nurturance card, which I drew for myself yesterday afternoon

This morning, I took responsibility for and took the first small (and simultaneously HUGE) step toward addressing my side of a complicated, strained relationship. I had to intentionally choose vulnerability in a situation where I have historically suited up with ALL THE ARMOR.Read More »

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Trust, Support, and Self-worth

Luca, my rock, behind me and Louis, my inner child, in front of me

This self-exploration comes from a personal coaching session with the Discovery Horse herd a couple of weeks ago. I wrote it that same day, but I wasn’t ready to share it until now.

On my way to Discovery Horse, I was overwhelmed with sorrow. It was a sorrow that had been building for a while and I could feel it morphing into a familiar monster: depression. My whole body felt like a place I needed to escape from.Read More »

Truth

cell phoneThe doctors stood straight and serious as they gave Jakob the news. He laughed at the irony of it all and they gave a collective frown. He let them share what they knew with him—statistics and estimations for which he had no interest—and when they were done, he signed all the necessary papers and left.Read More »

The Real Solee

IMG_5134 (2)This morning I took a shower and got dressed. I brushed my hair, made the bed, and cooked myself a balanced breakfast. Normally–by that, I mean on days when I feel normal–these are things I do without hesitation or thought. They are the tasks I speed through as I prepare of the real work of the day. Today, I do not feel normal. Today feeding and clothing myself are the real work of the day.Read More »

Them

steering wheel

HIM

He sits in the passenger seat. The weight of their history rises between them like a wall of glass, clear enough to see through, but thick enough to leave them unable to hear one another properly. He is thinking about the past. Mistakes that cannot be unmade. Opportunities that cannot be unmissed.Read More »